Trust

"We've each come from a past that's as long as our arms. But look at all that we've overcome. Look where we are now. Just trust me."

Qualities it takes to overcome all my issues:

Patience
Grace
Kindness
Gentleness
Tenderness
Hope
Faith
Strength
Tough-Skinned

Is my husband all of these things?? No.
Is my husband everything I ever hoped for? No.
Is my husband everything I thought I didn't deserve? No.


HE'S MORE.



While I struggle to adjust to work schedules, a social calendar, making dinner, grocery shopping for two, cleaning house, giving him space so that when he gets home he can participate in some of his hobbies rather than just work and what I want to do...he wraps his arms around me and guides me along with the ease of a husband of 20 years. He knows I struggle with my work sometimes. He knows I am constantly trying to further my relationship with God but sometimes I still get angry, bitter, annoyed, and anxious. He sees me trying and praises me for it. He never complains when I don't cook dinner and when the house isn't spotless even though I've got the time. Instead he comes home and asks me how my day was and puts his own frustrations and headache aside to hear me ramble on for hours about all I did.

So when he asked me last night "Do you trust me?" when it came to a situation that I'd been struggling with...how could I look at that man in the eyes and say, "Yes but..." Of course I trust him. HE just had to remind me that by worrying, I wasn't.

So I turn to The Word this morning in an effort to rid myself of these "fears." My husband is not anyone I have ever dealt with before. He is not any of the atrocities that have been committed against me. He is my husband, my help-mate, my partner...He is the one person that knows my heart. So I have a wonderful husband and a merciful God. This wife has some work to do to show these two how thankful she is. Because I'm not doing a good job of it so far.